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I am quitting...for good.
Jul 31, 2007 | 5:57 PM
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Today marks day one of being smoke free. Has been tough but now at almost 6pm without an once of nicotine in my system I am feeling confident that I can finally kick the habit for good.

I have tried many times, as most do, to stop smoking....I have smoked since I was 12 years old I am now 24 years old...so an even 12 years of smoking and probably for about the last 7 or 8 I have been a pack a day smoker.....minus the months I was pregnant and brestfeeding (only breastfed 2 months). For the time that I was pregnant it was a no brainer for me to suffer whatever I had to in order to stop smoking....however the problem with making that last was that it wasn't for ME, it was for the life inside me so when I no longer had that keeping me from smoking I started right back up....not around the baby or in the house at all for that matter, but none the less I was smoking again.

skip ahead through 3 years and we come to now....

A few months ago I went to the gynocologist for my yearly visit only to find out that I need to go back AGAIN to make sure that I do not have dysplasia (stage before cervical cancer) for a second time...the colposcopy showed that I did not have anything to be concerned about but being that this scared the BLEEP out of me I knew what I had to do...I asked the doctor for a Rx to the medicine "Chantix" a pill that helps block the sensors in the brain from even caring about nicotine, or sometrhing along that line. Well finding out that insurance doesn't cover it because it was too new and the price for  it was pretty hefty for our budget (and before anyone says anything about the smokes themselves....If i could quit on my own long enough to save up for the meds I wouldn't need the meds now would I?) So It was a few months before anything could be done about it. Thanks to my Mother-In-Law we were able to just recently get that Rx filled...however it was for my husband not me...bummer.....well it only took him 2 weeks to quit and stay that way for over a month now! Yay for him!!

Well he actually started the pills in the wrong place....they give you packets and you ttake this one this week and that one that week....anyway he managed to leave the first week untouched...so I thought that while I couldn't get my Rx filled I would start with the left overs of his...they were the EXact same thing...well it turns out to be a really good thing that I did not rush out and get mine filled......It made me sicker then a dog!!! I can't take them...period. On the up side I was so sick te entire day that i couldn't smoke...I did have one later that night as I started to feel better ...and the next day I was only interested in 3 smokes....and today none.....It is hard to not think about smoking....it is hard not to smoke, but hey when i don't even have any to smoke then I can't bend or break...the more days like this the better!

It also helps that I want to prove those who told me i can't do it ...wrong. I have no choice to go this without help, but I am determined and confident I can!

So anyone who reads this...leave me some encouraging comments!!! And please nothing rude....I am cranky already! LOL

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deafasheck read my blog view my photos
Jul 31, 2007 | 7:41 PM

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dehooks
Jul 31, 2007 | 9:38 PM

Well all I can say is that I am 60 years old and smoked for a long time. Went to the doctor, for something else, last May, 2006, and found out by accident that I had lung cancer. Both lungs and lympnods.
Today I am cancer free, for now, but have lost 4 friends recently that found out they had it after I did.
This is not about a scare tactic, but an eye opener. When I look at the price it costs and what it was taking away from my family kinda woke me up. Try going to a cancer center and see the people getting ready for their treatment My chest looked like a road map to the beach with all the marks on it so they could line up the radiation machine, which isn't a fun thing. In chemo, the after results were horrible. Think of the worst thing or sickness you ever had and it was 10 times worse. I would have given up a part of my body to not suffer what my whole body went thru. Losing hair was nothing, as I kinda played on that.
Best of luck to you and I hope you can finally quit.
smack read my blog
Jul 31, 2007 | 11:01 PM

conrats my wife and I quit 7 years ago today and it is the best choice for our health we have ever made..My tactic is to remember that I am only quitting for today..when I wake up tomorrow I will quit for that day..I have been doing this for 7 years and it is working for me...good luck..it is worth the pain and effort
draughnqueenbee read my blog view my photos
Jul 31, 2007 | 11:11 PM

I wish you the best of luck. I have lost several family members to cigarettes and have a sister now that is recovering from lung cancer and has a suspicious spot on her other lung. When I quit years ago I bought those little sour lemon balls and sucked on them whenever I thought I wanted a smoke. They make your mouth pucker and you can't smoke when you are sucking on them. I think it took me two or three weeks to quit and I never started back. I was in my thirties and I'm 67 now. Good luck honey, I'm pulling for you.
homeschoolmom read my blog view my photos
Aug 1, 2007 | 7:28 AM

I admire you for wanting to quit. I don't smoke, but my in-laws do and I know they have tried to quit many times without success. I don't really know any advice to give you, but I will pray for you that you can overcome this for your family and most importantly for yourself!
sirwilliam read my blog
Aug 1, 2007 | 8:22 AM

Good Luck, my friend!
Billy read my blog
Aug 1, 2007 | 8:30 AM

You can do it. Just hang in and find something you like you can do when the urge hits. Something other than eating something.

I, like you, started young. Before 10 on a farm and we tried anything that would burn. I smoked about 20 years and quit over 30 years ago.

It is tough so do not expect it, the urge, to go away after a short period. Mind over matter. Think you can and you can.

Best of wishes.
grannykl
Aug 1, 2007 | 5:35 PM

You can do it. I am pulling for you. I also had smoked and have now been quit for 12 years. I can even remember the day and time. It was November on a Friday afternoon at 3:00. Just take it a day at a time and keep fighting the urge. It will go away. It would be neat if Fox8 would show the segment again when Roy Ackland quit smoking. It was a long time ago but when they aired it a couple of years ago again it had me doubled over in laughter.
Fostermommy
Aug 2, 2007 | 8:41 AM

Hi, I don't smoke, but wanted to send encouragement and blessings your way! Faith is saying you are quitting and believing it. The talent you have is a blessing from God. Gifts are from God: your husband and child, also your life. So please continue to value it by defeating the cigs and God WILL do the rest. You're in my prayers!
Billy read my blog
Aug 2, 2007 | 10:03 AM

How is it going starting into day three?
homeschoolmom read my blog view my photos
Aug 2, 2007 | 1:32 PM

Please keep us updated! We are pulling for you!
David_Weatherly read my blog view my photos
Aug 2, 2007 | 2:07 PM

It just hit me that artbyakm2183 was only four years old when we did that story. Now I feel old...
David_Weatherly read my blog view my photos
Aug 2, 2007 | 2:56 PM

Hang in there, it get's easier every day. I quit about twenty-six years ago and it wil be twenty years ago this November when Roy Ackland quit. Copy the link below and paste it into your browser if you want to see the story we did the day Roy gave up smoking for good. The story aired November 1987. Roy looks a little younger and thinner...

http://tinyurl.com/2u3cym
Emily_Byrd read my blog view my photos
Aug 3, 2007 | 6:06 AM

You are stronger than this addiction, my friend.

What a fantastic thing to do for yourself. Of course you will be in our prayers.

Please keep us updated and remember to take it day by day.
seaangelrainqueen read my blog view my photos
Aug 7, 2007 | 12:53 AM

artby, I feel your pain (or I wish). I smoke, but want to quit, and I am a nurse, so I know all the health risks associated with it. They say we take care of everyone but ourselves! I am pulling for you! I hope to be in your shoes soon, and painful it will be! My fiance has told me it's all in my mind, because he laid them down so easily a long time ago, but I know different, because stupid me has quit several times, and started back. Keep up the good work, it's not worth the pain to go back through it again!!! We are all pulling for you!!!
mamaluvskids
Aug 7, 2007 | 4:27 PM

I am pulling for you too!I don't smoke but my husband does. I want him to quit soooo bad but he can't. The doctor has gave us the Rx Chantix too but like you said it is very expensive (well over $150 just to start!) and our insuance won't cover it!(You would think they would being since that it would save them in the long run) Anyway, about 6 months ago my husband had pneumonia and they found a spot on his lung, plus he found out he has C.O.P.D. and emphsyma (I don't think I spelled that right)He has went for a cancer test and a biopsy but so far no one can tell us if it's a guarantee he has cancer or not. We have small kids and I want him to be around for them. He tells me all the time to leave him alone, that I don't know what it's like to have an addiction and he's right I don't. I just feel like he's being selfish to not think of us instead of himself. I love him and just want the best for him, but I think he thinks I just "nag" him! I try to give him encouragement but it just seems not to help. I just don't want to loose him and have to raise our kids by myself if I can help it! I will keep you in my prayers!
mamaluvskids
Aug 7, 2007 | 4:30 PM

I am pulling for you too!I don't smoke but my husband does. I want him to quit soooo bad but he can't. The doctor has gave us the Rx Chantix too but like you said it is very expensive (well over $150 just to start!) and our insuance won't cover it!(You would think they would being since that it would save them in the long run) Anyway, about 6 months ago my husband had pneumonia and they found a spot on his lung, plus he found out he has C.O.P.D. and emphsyma (I don't think I spelled that right)He has went for a cancer test and a biopsy but so far no one can tell us if it's a guarantee he has cancer or not. We have small kids and I want him to be around for them. He tells me all the time to leave him alone, that I don't know what it's like to have an addiction and he's right I don't. I just feel like he's being selfish to not think of us instead of himself. I love him and just want the best for him, but I think he thinks I just "nag" him! I try to give him encouragement but it just seems not to help. I just don't want to loose him and have to raise our kids by myself if I can help it! I will keep you in my prayers!
seaangelrainqueen read my blog view my photos
Aug 8, 2007 | 12:19 AM

artby, keep us updated on your progress. I pray and hope that you can "hold out". I know I wish I could!
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I am a 25 year old stay at home mom of one very smart and active 4 year old. I have been married for 3+ years and together for 6+ years. I have lived in NC for the past 9 years. I met my husband here in NC after we both spent most of our lives in Ohio an hour apart (I 16 years in the same town and house him for 14 years I think). After spending 3 days together we both knew that we would be together for the rest of our lives... though it took us 3 years and a baby to get married! (we did not get married because of our son as a side note) My biggest dream is to become a well known artist and make a living at it. I do all kinds of art including plaster carvings, painting, scratch board, and sketching. I did not go to school for my art, I have been at it since before i can remember. I am self tought. I also do some crafts such as cross stitch and croche'. I have done work painting sets and making posters for The Staind Glass Playhouse in Winston Salem as well as some set painting in Lewisville for the West Side Civic Theatre. My husband, who is an actor, is the reason I got associated with these theatres to begin with. It is alot of work and fun but I am always glad to see winter months ahead and not just because I like the cold weather! Recently my Art activity has increased and things are looking good in the way of possibly making a living at this...slow going but you got to start somewhere! One day you may just know my name and face without having ever met me! Heck you may even buy a painting or ask me for a portrait of your family members!

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